while i was visiting my family, i was on insta looking at school uniform pics of my new fine shyt absurdly cute euro exchange chinese muse with a surprisingly nice ass who keeps liking every story i post. then my mother showed me an insta valentines posts of my mentally ill influencer ex(she was alone on valentines day)that i dumped by never responding to her anymore(i will always have feelings for her) giga spiking my cortisol levels. my ways are catching up to me but i cant stop anymore. i lowered my cortisol by comparing their age. luckily my new muse is 5 years younger . relief washes over me in an awesome wave