Of course I'm neurotic, I'm a single lonely bachelor. You should always assume the worst because getting your hopes up can kill a man because it's a form of delusional thinking which isn't based in reality.
Quit it with the arrogant tone. Yes I am because I want to hit it big. In order for a lot of men to successfully geomax for the long term, they have to risk everything. Most men are forced to quit their existing job and are leaving their hometown, travelling to a country they know little to nothing about and we don't know the language and the cultural differences make it tough to adapt.
I'm not talking about going on holiday, you fool, lol. The majority of the men who geomax are strictly betabuxing/green cards and will be scammed and abused by the women there and viewed solely as tools. If you're geomaxing without the intended desire to fuck prime age women who're ages 16 to 23 and who view you as their best option or at least their number 2. What the fuck are you going there for? You can escortmax back home. It makes zero sense to spend 1k on a flight to there when you can do it back home.