Sneep
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I'm 20, but people are still digging up stuff I said 5 years ago to use it against me. If I ever make it big (on YouTube and my other projects, etc.) I think they're just going to spam any of my new followers with all the stuff I said when I was in a messed-up state of mind. (They've tried this before) Such as stuff from my edgy phase. I wish I could go back to the past and be a more positive individual.
I was so full of hate back then, and I have no idea why.
Even a lot of my oldest posts on this forum are idiotic and toxic af. All of it is tied to my real-life identity because I'm a very honest and low-inhib guy.
I want to be a more positive person and help make the world a better place. I don't post hateful stuff anymore. Not because of society, but I've genuinely had a change of heart and cringe at the old stuff I posted. That may be corny to some of you, but that's just how I feel.
Like racist stuff against black people, when one of my only good childhood friends was a black guy, and I remember how much he loved me.
I feel like a proper jerk for that. Even if I was mostly trolling, and I'm non-NT. I've been diagnosed with many mental illnesses in my life, so that's why I don't beat myself up about it too much, but other people will.
I said other messed-up stuff, too, like against women. I'm not a SIMP, and I consider myself to be blackpilled and understand how evil a lot of women can be, but at the same time, I was raised mostly by a single mom (my parents separated when I was about 7), and she has always supported me and continues to support me despite my never having had a serious job. Yet I said horrible things about women that people will never let me forget.
Let this be a stark warning to you all, but especially those who are younger than me. Be very careful with what you say; make sure you have the right speech. Integrity is genuinely very underrated in today's society. And I'm not telling you to never say anything controversial, speak the truth, and say what needs to be said, but you don't have to be full of hate and say things you will regret sooner or later.
Also, this world seems very polarized right now; being cruel is seen as 'cool' now. Being apathetic and condescending to those suffering is rewarded.
While others are so quick to throw anyone who disagrees with them slightly under the bus, like the religious types and leftists.
It's like you need to be a chud, a communist, or a religious zealot to interact with most people online.
I'm finding it harder and harder to meet new people without going to echo chambers and then being left out.
On one side, we have the cruel and condescending, and on the other, we have the pure, perfect, and self-righteous who don't allow people to atone for their past mistakes.
I guess I'll just be left out of society and stuck in this eternal limbo.
March 26th, 2026 - 10:10 PM EST.
I was so full of hate back then, and I have no idea why.
Even a lot of my oldest posts on this forum are idiotic and toxic af. All of it is tied to my real-life identity because I'm a very honest and low-inhib guy.
I want to be a more positive person and help make the world a better place. I don't post hateful stuff anymore. Not because of society, but I've genuinely had a change of heart and cringe at the old stuff I posted. That may be corny to some of you, but that's just how I feel.
Like racist stuff against black people, when one of my only good childhood friends was a black guy, and I remember how much he loved me.
I feel like a proper jerk for that. Even if I was mostly trolling, and I'm non-NT. I've been diagnosed with many mental illnesses in my life, so that's why I don't beat myself up about it too much, but other people will.
I said other messed-up stuff, too, like against women. I'm not a SIMP, and I consider myself to be blackpilled and understand how evil a lot of women can be, but at the same time, I was raised mostly by a single mom (my parents separated when I was about 7), and she has always supported me and continues to support me despite my never having had a serious job. Yet I said horrible things about women that people will never let me forget.
Let this be a stark warning to you all, but especially those who are younger than me. Be very careful with what you say; make sure you have the right speech. Integrity is genuinely very underrated in today's society. And I'm not telling you to never say anything controversial, speak the truth, and say what needs to be said, but you don't have to be full of hate and say things you will regret sooner or later.
Also, this world seems very polarized right now; being cruel is seen as 'cool' now. Being apathetic and condescending to those suffering is rewarded.
While others are so quick to throw anyone who disagrees with them slightly under the bus, like the religious types and leftists.
It's like you need to be a chud, a communist, or a religious zealot to interact with most people online.
I'm finding it harder and harder to meet new people without going to echo chambers and then being left out.
On one side, we have the cruel and condescending, and on the other, we have the pure, perfect, and self-righteous who don't allow people to atone for their past mistakes.
I guess I'll just be left out of society and stuck in this eternal limbo.
March 26th, 2026 - 10:10 PM EST.
