Aidan
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- Aug 10, 2023
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I've been depressed ever since my mom put me on concerta in the 7th grade. The only really good times were breif moments in HS and then I just started smoking weed everyday in grade 11. I feel like I can never think straigh anymore and it's been a year since I quit (weed and concerta). I think becoming obsessed with fucking girls is a cope because I'm not doing something I truly love or that I even really like at all. I squandered so much time in Thailand staying with some shitty chick because I didn't want to break up with her and break her heart and stressing about finishing this stupid fucking math course and watching youtube videos all the time instead of going out. I squander all of my time now procrastinating still. The same in Canada
the hole that was always filled by weed has just been replaced by other mindless activities that I choose to do because I hate who I have become, even if on paper I have a dream job to a lot of people. I think I am depressed, and now after writing this I realize many of you are also depressed, are under worse circumstances than me, and have just accepted that life is going to suck and then you'll die. I will never accept that conclusion.
Many people have ways of coping with how shitty modern life makes them feel and most of the ways of expressing this cope I would argue is what is ruining the west right now. For me this looks like going on a global fuck mission but I did that in Thailand and I felt no better than before. Is the solution not just moneymaxxing, but trying to make a meaningful difference in the world? Am I a faggot for typing that? I hate this constatnt feeling over my head that makes me miserable even if things are going my way. This is priably the wrong place to be posting this shit but I deleted my socials and I think redit is full of faggots who's opinion I don't care about.
Can anyone relate?
What does winning look like to you, and what will having a relationship with a (poor) asian girl and or fucking a bunch of girls do to fix your empty life?
the hole that was always filled by weed has just been replaced by other mindless activities that I choose to do because I hate who I have become, even if on paper I have a dream job to a lot of people. I think I am depressed, and now after writing this I realize many of you are also depressed, are under worse circumstances than me, and have just accepted that life is going to suck and then you'll die. I will never accept that conclusion.
Many people have ways of coping with how shitty modern life makes them feel and most of the ways of expressing this cope I would argue is what is ruining the west right now. For me this looks like going on a global fuck mission but I did that in Thailand and I felt no better than before. Is the solution not just moneymaxxing, but trying to make a meaningful difference in the world? Am I a faggot for typing that? I hate this constatnt feeling over my head that makes me miserable even if things are going my way. This is priably the wrong place to be posting this shit but I deleted my socials and I think redit is full of faggots who's opinion I don't care about.
Can anyone relate?
What does winning look like to you, and what will having a relationship with a (poor) asian girl and or fucking a bunch of girls do to fix your empty life?
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